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I Can't Breathe

DoubleC

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16 days ago I felt out-of-control and wanted to try and get a plan going with George. 16 days later I find out George has a new job, and I feel like I can't breathe. If I'm distracted I'm ok but when things quiet down and I have time to think my heart ends up in my throat blocking my air.

My hands shake, and my heart pounds and I can't breathe. I am truly lost now. Kevin gave me some great, not so much advice as just some shared wisdom. I want to be what he wants me to be, but I am so afraid. I see it all slipping away and the harder I try to grab it close, the further away it is. And this ain't no 'if you love something set it free' feeling either. It's terror. I can't do this without him, I know I can't. I was barely doing it with him. I want to drink until I can't feel my fingertips, I want to do some drugs that erase memories and shove your heart back into your chest, I want to sleep and quit bothering to get up and trying to work.


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David8386

I hope you are doing better I know kind of how you feel I have anxiety issues under pressure before but not anything like yours so I not saying I know exactly what is going on. What helped me with mine was a quick prayer and the realization of what was really happening( the anxiety attack) and move on from there. I have looked at some of your work and you are talented at what you create. Just surround yourself with your friends and work and keep your safe spots open and don't close them out which is what I used to do. I don't mean to sound preachy to you just letting you know people care. David

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