I appreciate what you're saying and it does apply. I have made some positive moves and have decided sell everything off anyways regardless of school. I don't want to rebuild with what's left. You see I built it all for her. I don't know that I as a singular unit wants or cares about any of those things if they are not to share. I look at this opportunity regardless how unlikely as a means to reach fir my dreams. The things I would do for myself. Not for her. I can appreciate that this seems "haphazardly" but I assure you this is a means to an end. That end being positive in both ways. A cleansing purge of the past and a possible new beg coming studying something I know is my passion.
The masters program is $22,000 which is not far off of most art schools. It is a year long course. The second semester I am elligable to apply to be the "course reporter" which would save another $10,000 off of final tuition price. That and my $2700 scholarship would make it unrealistic not to attend. If I was to spend a year in Italy studying I would not want to leave anything in storage because I would not want to be held down in the face of opportunity. 3-8 graduates stays in Italy for internship or continued school for a second year.
I appreciate healthy reservations and I appreciate most that you took the time to look into the school at least a little bit before nay saying. That is a very easy route for people who have never taken a chance. I figure at 34 years old with no children and no one to answer to the only one I would be upset with for not trying everything possible to make it happen would be myself. I only have to live with myself now. Thank you for your input to is acknowledged.