I've never met you, and find it a bit strange, but you are in my thoughts quite often because of what you are trying to do. I keep hoping for your success. Keep at it!
Just wait till you're 100% quit. You'll be amazed at how bad it really smells. When people used to tell me I stunk like an ashtray, I just sorta shrugged it off. I thought they just needed something to complain about. Now I understand what they meant. Darn us born again ex smokers
There used to be a guy where I worked that smoked heavily, and also smoked cigars in his closed car. I could smell him when he drove into the parking lot without his windows being open. I knew as soon as he walked into the building before I even saw him. Walking into his cigar smoke stench was like walking into a solid object. I had to leave as soon as he walked in. I could not stand to be in the same room with him.
OTOH, even to this day, when someone lights a cig, the very first second or two after it's lit, it smells really good. Sorta makes me want a drag.... But ONLY for the first second or two, and then it just stinks again.
You'll get there, Johanna. Sometimes it just takes practice. I'm still cheering for you!
Hilly