Very sorry for your loss. There is no pain like losing your child. I watched the pain my parents suffered after losing my oldest brother. The pain never ever goes away. In 2014 my wife and I had our second son Eddie. We never got to bring him home. He lived here for only two weeks, but he totally changed our lives. My wife, being an art teacher was inspired in so many ways once the grief subsided a little. She launched a Be a Gift program to inspire folks to be organ donors. When I came to the conclusion that I would have to start moving again, I picked up leather crafting. You know, just to get my hands moving again. I think a lot about him in the quiet while I hand stitch my little hobby projects. I was "fortunate" enough in my life to see the choices my father had made in his grief. I was able to steer myself in a different direction after seeing his experience. I don't judge my father for his choices, I just made different ones. On the 15th, it will be Eddie's 2nd birthday. I suppose this is why I ramble.
Sorry, back on topic. Everyone in my house knows they are loved.
God bless you.