Yes you are right the world is a crazy place . You said the main factor is luck even if you don't Realize it, meaning me LOL you have know idea what I realize or don't realize. To be honest it sounds like your not so sure of yourself ,after all how many things can one control,, 4 or 5, or a war, or maybe a financial crisis, or skyrocketing fuel cost, and COVID who could know , a brain tumor, a fall down the stairs, cancer , a car accident, and the big one DIVORCE wholly shit, and what if I'm just not lucky, Wow I know I'll read my horoscope every day. Just get out and do something before it becomes a real problem for you, that's what I hear in what you wrote. but that's just me.